Almost, nearly perfect

Notes from *Iceland, August 18, 2018

Sitting in the airport, listening to Sigur Rós and a reading a book, “The Almost Nearly Perfect People,” feeling quite the same. This moment is almost, nearly perfect. My life is almost, nearly perfect.

Sometimes I think that’s all there is. A quiet, deliberate acceptance that perfect is a measurement that does not exist. A destination you’ll be forever sitting in the terminal waiting for the chance to begin, to arrive.

Sitting, waiting
Akureyri, Iceland, 2018

You sit.

And there is no departure.

And no arrival.

How still and beautiful the recognition that the terminal is enough. This moment. This almost, nearly perfect moment.
a dog napping
Möðrudalur, Iceland, 2018

In some ways my life is still very much a blur. The spinning has stopped but when I look back all I can see is the spinning. Swirls of color and places I can’t remember. Events in time shaken up and put back together without any specific order. A kaleidoscope without a pattern.

I can’t even really remember the last time I was in the airport. I think it was 2016 2017 when I visited my friend Linda in Nashville and then drove to Chattanooga afterward to see my sister. I don’t remember if I went anywhere in 2016. I feel like I must have, but that whole year is a bit of a blank.

Reykjavík, Iceland, 2018

It feels strange now, to be going to Europe alone. But it also feels so right. This thing I’m doing, just for me. Not running or grieving or seeing anyone but myself a little deeper, freer, happier. 
Laugarfell, Iceland, 2018

The experience is a little bit existential, to be honest. Like, “How did I get here?” and “Why am I so lucky?” and “What in the world is next?”

I am not in any hurry to find out.
Reykjavík, Iceland, 2018

*or notes from the airport on the way to Iceland

Previous Post Next Post

You Might Also Like


  • Reply The Barefoot Backpacker August 27, 2018 at 11:15 pm

    Airports are wonderful places for reflection and thought. They’re, literally i guess, portals to another world, but ones not always ‘open’.

    I recently had four weeks in Vanuatu and passed through a few airports which get 2-4 flights a week, and consist of a small concrete shed next to a grass runway. When a plane is due they’re full of life, but even 20 minutes after departure they’re empty and quiet; great places to sit and think, or just walk down the runway itself in what feels like an illicit thrill. 🙂
    The Barefoot Backpacker recently posted…Trekking on MalekulaMy Profile

    • Reply Mariah September 9, 2018 at 10:17 pm

      I like that description a lot, portals that aren’t always open. I’ve been thinking a lot too about how travel and the freedom to travel is such a privilege and how it’s limited to where you’re from and what you may or may not look like. I think the analogy of never really arriving fits with the idea of letting go of the striving to become a certain state of perfection, but some people never really arrive or achieve a state of belonging. For them, sitting in the waiting room is a lifelong experience.

      I guess in some ways we are all hanging out in some form of waiting room, though it seems they may not all be equal. So good to hear from you and I hope your travels are going well Ian!

    Leave a Reply

    CommentLuv badge